THE LINING SILVER IN THE COULD

This is about my life. A grim story that really did not want me to tell. Was not a story that was about my family. Precisely at the beginning of the year New Year’s Eve 2010. In my house was like hell. Like a cat in a cage that’s what I thought at that time.
Sad, upset, and angry that I felt. Unlike the previous New Year’s Eve. Only quarrel and dispute what I heard that night. Maybe this was not my story worth telling. My parents have been damaging the beautiful night.
However, I was lucky, there are my beloved brother who entertain me with a funny naughty behavior. Although there are things in there that made my inner torment.
New Year’s Eve when I arrived just celebrate it with my brother with pride lit the fire. Not long after that, the rain was falling. My brother
and I went into our respective rooms. Hhhhmmmm….. seems that time the atmosphere in the house seemed muffled.
Kkkrreeeekk…. I opened my bedroom door slowly. I heard my ringtone hp was rang. Several incoming messeges I receive, all about greeting the new year. When I wanted to reply to that messeges, suddenly….. my dad took my hp and……. Ppprrraaakkkk!!!! My hp slammed the floor. He did not let me bring hp. I did buy hp without the knowledge of my father. I was never close with my dad. I was annoyed with him. He always generalize me with other kids who hang out too freely. He never recognize and understand me.
My father also did a lot on the problem at that time. But I was happy with it, I wanted my father learned that the property was only a deposit that could be taken at any time by all-powerfull. And wealth was not everything that should be on pround.
I was crying, then I ran into my brother room. And it turns out mother was there too. I immediately hugged my mother without being able to hold my tears anymore. New Year’s Eve which I thought it would be a happy night, it turned into a night full misfortune.
The next day, exactly the day Friday. Eeuuhhhmmm….. huh?? A gloomy Friday morning. Father was still sleeping in the room, the younger brother was sitting pretty in front of televisiom, and the mother was busy in the kitchen.
I took my towel hanging behind my bedroom door, and I immediately headed for the bathroom. Overnight rain had not subsided, so… wwooowww!!!! Chill even penetrated to the bone marrow. But the could began to decrease after I see the dish on the dining table. Eehhmm…. It smells good  . Beloved mother made chicken soup. I use my towel to cover my hair is wet, and I take the bowl that has been provided on the table. But?? Why three other bowls still neat?? Wheter this morning I had breakfast alone again?? Remember it all my appetite vanished and I could not finish my soup, which had been taken earlier.
I was bored. I’m anxious to go to school again as usual, by accident it was holiday time smester.
I approached my brother who was busy playing PS. He is just entertainer my heart. When I was busy playing with my brother, suddenly…. Ggrrreeeekkkk!!! Heard someone opened the gate. I see from the front window of my dad was already up and left without saying goodbye. I was puzzled to see everything that happened with my family. Closer examination actually a lot of problems to come. Hhmmffttt  concentrate my studying seriously broken.
Two days later, I was starting school. Hmmm… my heart glad to get out of the house was like hell. But not as usuall as well, to day I set off at school with no in between. Do not wake up my brother because he came school at noon. I spent a glass of milk and a loaf of bread on the table, and directly said goodbye to my mother.
I was waiting for public transportation of the house. Ehhmm… still too early so the streets looked deserted. From the distance of gray public transportation line Simbarwaringin-Metro over to my department. I went to it. Fortunately no passengers in it, my friends but different schools. We were talking in it. Do not feel we had arrived at the terminal. We parted at the terminal, he continued to ride red public transportation line metro-campus. While I headed rickshow base not far from there.
When he got in school Immediatelly rused to the classroom and waaa???!!! My friends have a lot to come, we were hugging each other to remove the longing for nearly three weeks was not meet.
Not long after, ting tung ting tung!! Entry bell was sounded, we went straight to the front yard to carry the flag ceremony. Morning it’s sunny, no whit black cloud in the sky. Ceremony is finished… we went to our respective classes. Time teaching study activity has not lasted, so the students sent home early. But I didn’t decided to go home because on that day there were two Bimbel schedule. I stayed at school until the waiting time Bimbel.
I sat in front of the school musola with my friends. My moment right direction my views to the highway. I saw the driving pedicaps subscription son and his wife to the market. Without my knowing it, my tears were seen trickling emotion. How family harmony that although the simple life but they were always happy. My acestry is very different lately.
Do not feel the time has been shown at 13:45. Fifteen minutes again at the start Bimbel English. I immediately rushed towards the house tutor with my two friends.
When we got there, we immediately start lesson. But we also do not want to learn serious. Yeeaa… as usual, if our gathered this like we could not stop laughing :D :D. But Mom Atiek, our teachers also never angry with us, we consider her as own mothers. If there is a problem we always ask for a solution from her.
Not felt since he called time has shown at 16:00. Time we said goodbye and headed home Mr.Joe to Bimbel Match. Of the five of us, only three involved Bimbel Mathematichs where Mr.Joe. Hahahaha :D and we were late, Bimbel already begun.
This was the most exciting thing for me. Bimbel, come home late, and talking with friends. Because that all made me forget all the problems at home.
At 18:00 we left. Emm… this day went by so fast. When I got home, my mother and brother were waiting for me on the porch. Eehhmm… happy. I immediately greeted and kisses my mother and brother they welcomed me. Immediately told my mother a bath and evening prayers together. After prayer we went to dinner. I’m happy togetherness began to be felt even though my father was rarely come join us.
Evening wore on, but my eyes could not shuit it. I heared my father oponed the door. He looked exhausted. I peered from the door, my mother had welcomed the arrival of the father. I was glad to see it …  . But soon heared again from their verbal battle  .
Three months later…
This month entered the final seconds of the exam, because now I’m sitting in class IX. But why in the seconds are also increasingly peaked my family problems?? Until my mom finally threw the word divorce to my dad. Initially they didn’t want to tell me, but in the end I know it. I was angry with them. I tearfully talked them, I pleaded to them to maintain the integrity of our family. I just think about the fate of my brother who was still in desperate need of affection. Indeed the last few years they had mutually away from one another.
My father wasn’t always able to get the exchange thoughts with my mother. He was stubborn and selfish. My brother didn’t know this problem.
I was confused, my mind was fractic. I sat in the window of the room, it was very cloudly weather, such as the cloudy my heart.
I saw the black cloud, there is little silvery white light side. Finally I thought, I likened my self as the black cloud. Means there was little hope for me to keep excited about the exam even though I was now on the brink of ruin my family.
My spirits began to rise again….
I tried to forget all the things that pollute my mind. Only one, I hope I should be able to pass with a satisfactory value.
My day after day passed, the exam was finally compeled. But my family problems still had not finished. And finally a decision in the can, my mother and father divorced. I was really shocked. And the more so I had to part with my brother, no longer goad my eyes water dam this. :@ :’(
None of my friends who knew this problem. Everyday I could be my usual self they know. Captious, cheerful, though his mind was actually crying. My family can’t be maintained again , whether I too would fail in this test. I felt my life not means anymore.
Announcement finally came around, I hope my good value even if it lasts the test of time so many trials . Envelope was eventually distributed . Can’t wait to open at home , I immediately opened the envelope and….
“PASS” . . .
I immediately shed a happy tear . Although even it the midst of the destruction of my family , my heart in the midst of confusion , I could grow my spirit to pass the exam with a satisfactory value . I can only submit to God, that was my way of life that must go through.
Although I value satisfy but it was not complete without unity in my family . Couldn’t hold my tears anymore , because I envied my friends who can proudly show the results of his efforts as this parents.
But I believed anything as difficult as this problem there must be a way out and I hope God still give hope to meet with my brother. I will try to get up and make this darkness changed to started me to go glories. :’)

THE END….

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